Heavy-Hearted...

When you were a kid, you always dream of leaving the house but when the time is finally here, you just don't want to. You want to stay where you are because you know how much you will miss this place and of course the tenants, the food, the environment, the convenience and so much more that you have been growing up with for the past 20 years 7 months and 7 days.

The week for me to leave is finally here. I have not finished packing or should I say, I have not even started packing and I have tons of things I want to bring with me with most of them are not having to do with my studies. I have not finished cleaning my room and it is not even half cleaned yet. There are so many things that are needed to be done like cutting my hair, waxing the car, fixing my grandmother's favourite chair and now with the maid at my mum's shop gone, I wish I could stay and give them a hand especially the aunty who is working for my mum even though she can just retire and sit at home. If it hasn't been her help as well as my parents, I wouldn't be going to college or now even better, University that is so darn expensive.

Maybe all these are just an excuse for me not wanting to leave but I know I will have to go no matter what. I have made up my mind what I want to do and how I want to do. Things do not usually go as planned and I do not intend to stick to my plan but I am going to focus on my goal and surely things will be good.

For now, I just want to spend time with my parents because I will have less of that for years to come. For the past few days, I had a very great days with them. We laughed, we joked, we teased and of course there were those times when I just lost my temper which is a very bad thing to do depending on the times that I will have with them now that I am leaving for KL.

Oh, people will think that KL is just a very near place. You can always come back. It is just a few hours drive. But the one thing that is different is that, you will be far apart from your parents and no matter how many trips you take to travel back with them, it is different from staying with them but I think it will make me cherish them more and learn how to be a better daughter?

Finally the two of them will have the world to themselves when they are at home except if you count that little naughty, playful, crazy dog of mine, then it will make it three. I'm sure the dog will give them some fun time at home. One thing that will not come from the four legged living being is noise. So it will be quiet and finally no one bothering them, no one singing at night and no one who will hog on to the television watching DVDs.