Done with IT...

The way you left was kind of unacceptable...
But I still have to accept it...
It might be my fault...
It might be your fault...
Who cares now that I am done with it...

I am tired...
Tired of giving love to a person who doesn't deserve it...
Tired of thinking of a way to repair and make it better...
Tired of trying to find my guts to ask you again "What is it that turned this friendship upside down"
Tired of valuing this friendship when you do not even show a sign of you trying...

Trust and respect are two things you must earn...
You earned my trust and respect...
You threw my trust away...

I realise quite a few things with you leaving...
Like what he said...
You are just a part/phase in my life...
Like what he said...
Don't think about it so much and go the way it flows...

I wonder and wonder and wonder...
Why do I value our friendship so much...
When it is only coming from me?
Why do I crack my brain
When you do not seem to care?

I know it is impossible for me to accept it instantly...
because it will take some time for me to accept... but I am getting used to certain things...
It is impossible for me to stop caring for you....
because it is not in my nature to stop caring for someone even though they have left me...

I am done with you but it will take me time to really get over you...
All I hope now is that... to be a bit more selfish...
you will leave and leave me alone...
Stop showing that you care...
Stop showing that you still wanna be friends...
Stop showing your nice face...
because sometimes I feel like slapping that bloody face...

If you want this to end... END IT...
If you want this friendship still... Help me to repair it instead of leaving me doing the things...
If you want this to go on... Please do it without me feeling it...

It stings when you do it and I can feel it...
It stings even more when you give me hope that we can be friends again...
It stings when you be nice and evil the next moment...
It just stings to be your friend sometimes...